Mindgardens Poetry

Take the mesh from my eyes And let me see the world My reality is not your own In your mind, I'm just a whore Falling pieces come undone Watch me struggle in need You see a mask; you don't see me Just pretend I'm having fun Gone is my pride; gone is my mind All that is left is my little white-ass behind Alone with my thoughts; alone in my pain Voices fill my head; they all say I'm insane Alone in this dark is where I dwell No place to go; no heaven, no hell Too tired and scared to face the next day No desire to know what fate will throw my way You say life is peachy Well, I care not for fruit My mind wanders aimlessly There is no hope for truth by Bonny & Billy - ©1999 to present

You say that I can be cruel I think you could be right You blame me for my anger My bark is weaker than my bite You sometimes do not trust me I have only told you the truth You love me when I'm unfaithful I yearn for all things taboo You often ignore what I say I just get louder and speak my mind You close me out and walk away But I'm angry and I'm not far behind You think that you can't talk to me I have my own point of view You want me to shut up and listen To what you think about things too You feel that I'm unfair to you I am trying to make you understand You need to be more self-sufficient And start believing that you can You're afraid that I don't want you I really just want us to be happy You stand beside me, but I pull away Being near you makes me feel snappy I often ask you why you still love me You plainly tell me that you just do I don't deserve this unconditional love But you're a part of me and I love you too.

Teardrops misting gently upon my cheek As I often wonder why I wander away From what I know and all that I trust And find solace in this game of wordplay Slowly diverging from who I once was Some part of my old self surely remains People will go but more will arrive No part of tomorrow will ever be the same Eraser in hand, I try to clean the slate History has been written in permanent ink A deafening scream sheers through my head As I painfully realize nothing is in sync A treacherous idea is etched in my thoughts No erase and rewind button is in clear sight Restless energy takes on a life of its own This constant insanity must be my birthright Fighting to stay in control of my thoughts Grasping onto some semblance of this reality Forging an alliance with my imagination I have to wonder about my fleeting mentality But then I struggle to remember something Oh yea, I've been here many times before Another moment has passed through my life Challenging me again to a game of bi-polar

Do you remember how it felt to touch me Or how my kisses would stir you deep within Can you feel the heat building when you recall How my lips softly brushed against your skin? Do you still awaken so late at night and Are you still plagued with thoughts about me Or have you succeeded in forgetting everything Can you really move on without another memory? Do you remember the way we danced so close As if we would never again see one another So close to a beginning but already at the end Our first kiss that night, was like no other. Do you feel my body against yours when you dream Does your mind play tricks on you when you're with her And are you curious to know if I'm thinking of you Are you certain your choices can withstand forever? Do you remember making love to me again and again Wishing that moment wouldn't have to be our last Can you still taste me on your lips when you think back Do you still have no regrets... for these moments in our past?

Little feet and little hands Curious fingers and ticklish toes Dimpled cheeks with a smile so big Perfected sweetly with a pudgy nose Happy baby with twinkling eyes Giggling, laughing, so innocent Cuddly, playful, smart as can be An angel like this must be heaven sent A mother's wish, a dream come true My little wonder is growing fast Yesterday has come and gone, but These tender moments aren't meant to last I love you more than anything ever Jonathan by Bonny - ©2005 to present

A face is a mask that all people wear Some are worn guardedly and some without care A face depicts moods and emotions we feel And sometimes what we see isn't always real A face is like armor if we wear it the right way But a face can betray us if we don't mean what we say A face can bring happiness and warmth to others Or send chills up the spines of those we call lovers A face can be deceptive and tell many lies Or be worn to hide what we wish to disguise My face is wearing what I cannot describe For so many feelings and emotions are whirling inside by Bonny - ©2005 to present

Dancing in the moment Forgetting to remember What should be priority In this chilly month of december Any mind would mind These secrets that I hide But I am without worry I still have dignity and pride Wandering within This tantalizing array Of feelings and emotions My wicked mind will play Pretending not to care I sometimes forget I do Attracted to the thought Of forgetting I ever knew by Bonny - ©2005 to present

I pour my heart upon this page As I reminisce of memories come and gone Knowing now what I knew not then And having reached beyond the beyond The passion and pleasures we must forget Not one stolen moment, maybe two Maybe more, but I'm not counting My memories are fading..... and so are you.... I long for what was once before The whirlwind of insane desires A time less confusing and slower in pace But those days have long since expired We move forward but further away From what we knew of one another Into something I no longer understand The friends we were, we are no longer I miss my friend.... by Bonny - ©2005 to present

The deck's all laid out As always, the Ace is never on top Poor baby; you sure can't win for lose Because noone ever taught you when to stop It boils in your blood As it races through your veins No, it's no ordinary addiction For your only pleasure will be pain It will have you in fits in rage Before it will let you live in peace The only cure you'll find is within The anguish you harbor will spread like a disease by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Let me damn you with my love I will hurt you with my tongue Offer me your heart to crush My words will kill before too long Trust me now for I am sweet Fooled you good: you come again Give to me your complete attention Forgive me now for I will sin Hold out your hand and I will take Spend your time with me and I shall waste Bear your soul and feel my sting No need to run: I'm here to stay by Bonny - ©1999 to present

(There Ain't No Such Thing As A Free Lunch) There's a little story That I really must tell About two bad boys Named Chip and Dale One's selling drugs While the other one's doped Chip had a dream But he lost all hope Running from the cops Never looked so hard Now Dale's wishing like hell He never stole that car The Devil's gonna catch ya No matter where you run Poor little Chip Never should have played with guns You know when you play with fire You gotta pay the price When you lose at your own games It's like rolling the dice Now you read it in the paper No you didn't miss a word If you were a better mother Noone would be hurt by Bonny - ©1999 to present (special thanks to an old friend for the name of this poem)

Dear Mommy and Daddy I know you cannot hear me But there is something I want to say For there is so much I've yet to do and see I love you both so very much And I pray you love me too Please don't send me back I deserve a chance to be with you My every dream is to be born To experience life as you know I'm not asking for miracles that cannot happen Just love and cherish me as I grow by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Maybe... you will smile at me Maybe... you will listen to me Maybe... you will see the light Maybe... you will set me free Maybe... today will be the day Maybe... we will find our peace Maybe.. my heart won't break this time Maybe... the tears will cease Maybe... it won't hurt so bad Maybe... the hand will show mercy Maybe... your kisses will heal my swollen lips Maybe... I will forgive me Maybe the sun will shine Maybe the rain will fall Maybe the leaves will turn Maybe I will forget it all ...MAYBE... by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Shed are thy ashes Upon this life A new burden piercing Sharp as a knife Hate is like fire That burns through the soul Scorching my pride With bitterness so cold Sin is the candy That feeds on us all Morbid pleasure Becomes marshal law Tears turn to ice Blood burns like acid Stench is the fragrance When life becomes rancid I can lick all my wounds But I can never be free Trapped within the past is the future Waiting for what? What will be? by Bonny & Billy - ©1999 to present

Shooting stars Stolen moments Breathless nights I can't control it Is it love Will it fade Is it free Or will I pay Will I live Will I die Feels so perfect I could fly The night is young And so are we I couldn't imagine A better place to be New experiences Intense emotions Out of control Into explosions Passionate promises Sweet sensations Seductive melodies I'm losing patience by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Give me a moment And I shall be Everything you want Anything you need Give me a moment And I shall say Words of sweet passion As I whisper your name Give me a moment And I shall cry For all our happy moments And all this precious time Give me a moment And I shall show you All the love I feel inside To share, to be, to know the truth And in that moment You will know I LOVE YOU!!! by Bonny - ©1999 to present

You closed your eyes forever How long is forever Will you ever open your eyes again Who's eyes will you open next Will your new eyes ever see mine again I so long to see your old ones Old eyes, old memories New eyes, new memories I get the feeling this is where we forget Old eyes, old feelings I get the feeling that feelings change Old eyes, old knowledge New eyes, new knowledge I get the feeing we know nothing ............................................. You closed your eyes forever Forever ended yesterday Once again, you open your new eyes Who are you this time? by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Is this love Is this torture Is this temporary Or could it be forever Will you treasure me Will you hate me Will you forgive me It must be my own insanity Should I ask these questions Do I have any right Is it not my life to live My love is your restless night Do I not tell you my darkest secrets They are the soil of my imagination Fantasy to reality Such daring inspirations Do you really know me Do you think anyone knows me Do you think I am real Perhaps your reality is merely my fantasy Are you destiny Are you everything I need Are you lonely When my lusty heart bleeds I so often seek companionship Where your heart does not beat My unholy desires remain in remission Why must love rule so bittersweet... by Bonny - ©1999 to present This poem is not to be claimed by anyone else on ANY dating site or anywhere else for that matter. You are welcome to share with others, but please DO NOT think you can claim ownership in anyway to this poem. It is mine, I wrote it and put it here to share w...

Flowing gently down my cheek A crystal clear drop of my pain Splashing down into my palms As I hold close my entrapped brain Whirling fast with no restraint A mind wanders beyond insane No outline for what will be Only time will set me free One more day and then the next Unthought plans set to play Making beds for which to sleep Eyes wide open ; dreams fly away Looking deep into the shallow Blind to happiness, I see sorrow Venturing far to stay close by Holding a hand for fear of life by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Music playing in my head Life so full yet still so dead Waiting, looking, finding you Sad song tells a story true A face appears; who could you be An angel or demon here with me The music stopped; a new melody begins I've searched all over; where have you been Music playing in my head Life so full; I look ahead Dancing, singing, loving you Melodies of love tell a story true Time passed by and you're still here Life, love, and memories we do share The music fades; a new melody plays I see our dreams fading away Music pounding in my head Life so full and I see red Careless, reckless; I'm hurting you Symphonies of confusion tell a story true Now an Angel's wing is broken Tears, pain and mistrust I did bring The harsh music lingers on And I can't find a new song Songbirds singing in my ear Life so full; I stop to hear Standing, sitting, running free Searching again for my destiny by Bonny - ©1999 to present

Beyond the beyond, is never far Lurking somewhere in every heart Tempting fate as never before A thought for a thought; My friend you are And in my mind, I sometimes see Alternate choices that could be But in my life, I cherish thee For friendship is eternity Dedicated to Dexter, my friend. by Bonny - ©2000 to present

Sweet sentiments of sensual seductions Monopolize my every thought of you Quickened pulse with every word Of hidden symbolic meanings ensued And mental images of secret places In which an unbound mind may wander Heighten my awareness of what could be Within this storm of turbulent thunder Looking beyond this drowning emotion Pool of longing for what is not to be Into the center of one stolen moment A mind will see the glory of your entirety by Bonny - ©1999 to present Inspired by Dexter 10-3-00

As the bloody tears caress my cheeks I see my friend what you have done For fault lies within you but you are blind To play with death is all but fun The path you follow is dark and reckless Destined to lead you to your ultimate fears Your game is competitive and yes you may lose Not everything you see is just as it appears You do not know it, but you are lost Surrounded within the tantalizing poison An all consuming power corrupts your very soul Forcing your world into oblivion Bitter-sweet is the fire you swallow For happy days are all you seek Today, it will be your joy and comfort Tomorrow can be nothing but cold and bleak by Bonny - ©1999 to present

She blazed into your life and opened Your heart and mind to every whim And every desire she stirred within You my friend.... and then She drank of your body and your soul Drained you of your essence Devouring what she could for herself And you become the evanescence Of a life once full and rich with A dream and a hope of tomorrow But wait.... there is still yet Another tomorrow, although It may not be everything that you Once had hoped and wished it to be Because life is rich with mysteries Waiting to be discovered, and finally Another lover may enter your life Stirring within all the hope and desire And love you only thought you once knew But never with such passion and fire As the love you have yet to experience.... by Bonny - ©2003 to present

Tears are dropping in my mind This plastic smile is all you see Digital images of a love once had And then you tempt me with eternity Forgotten moments play again Reversing all I thought I knew Expanding and contracting, never ending A universe alive inside of you Evolution is born again It all began with you and him Evolution is born again A faded traveler stumbles home He knows he's been there once before All that is familiar is never the same How many times had he walked through that door? Timeless mortality ends with a beginning Recycling memories yet to unfold A life will end in the instant it began The cycle completes a story not told Evolution is born again It all began with you and him Evolution is born again Time to turn the hourglass The sands are nearing the end So close to completing destiny All that was gained must be lost again Lost again by Bonny - ©2001 to present