Mindgardens Poetry

Hidden behind these eyes is a pain That no one will ever truly understand Shamefully, I veil them beneath my mirth And carry on as though all things are grand Misfortunate events and bad choices Are all that I have to bring to this table For the greatest of things was there already Slip, slip, slipping further... I'm unstable Hiding my pain has become the norm How could I possibly explain the truth I've tried but all I hear is myself My selfish behavior has become uncouth Wallowing in pity, mourning a loss Blinded I've been to the love before me Callous even.... thoughtless.... hurtful.... Numbed just a little.... by the shocking irony This could get interesting.... Who knows.... Written June 17, 2007

The love I once felt is changed forever Destroyed by words of anger and pain Like fire and ice, we were passion's polarity Calmed into a lull by the night's gentle rain Bittersweet are my memories of you Leaving scattered footprints in my mind Our time together was beyond compare Yet somehow... it was angry words we left behind How did we get here, you and I? At what point did we cross the line? Coming together was inevitable for us Why couldn't we stop the crash in time? Despite everything, you'll not be forgotten I miss your smile, your voice, your sensual touch I miss gazing longingly into your gentle eyes Perhaps it matters not but I'll miss you so much

Pieces of me now come together A harmonious being of patchwork Blending the fibers of my soul With a rainbow of emotions to sort My lips have tasted the sweeter side And these eyes have seen the darkness Experiencing all the many alluring facets Of life's ever evolving path to happiness Passionately driven to define perfection I find fault in every strength that I possess Overwhelmed by my darkest of fears but Painfully aware of my innermost weakness Calico images unveiled from deep within You see a mask but there's more to me Hiding behind the pieces put together I show you only what you need to see A poem I wrote for my " Behind the Mask " class. -Bonny

Something sinister lurks beneath Wickedly dancing under my skin Taking possession of my body Like heated embers of a fire within Devouring hungrily upon my flesh Of a red and rosy colored hue Itching wildly beyond my control To rid myself of this urushiol tattoo Having foolishly been where I should not I bear the marks of accidental sin Seeking furiously my heated release I desperately embrace this temporary solution Stepping into the scalding water I welcome the maddening euphoric rush Stripping my skin of its histamines Ahh.... eight sweet hours of blissful hush While this poem was deliberately written to be mus-interpretted, it was actually written about an experience I had with poison ivy some years back where I learned that scalding hot water helps alleviate the itching associated with poison ivy and most any other types of itch. It also provides such an intense rush that it is nearly addictive. Don't believe me? Try it sometime... if you dare! :D

The first time you smiled My heart sung with delight Your eyes twinkled so brightly Just like stars in the night You soon learned to walk Not long after, you ran I watched as you grew Into my handsome little man With love I would guide you But you followed another Right down the path you went Too far from your mother I ran as fast as I could But I couldn't catch you You chased a white rabbit Beyond the woods into the kudzu I cried and I begged of you Please don't go, please don't you dare Listen to your mother my love Please don't follow that hare! I saw you smile back at me And then you were gone Your journey began that day As you disappeared beyond I would see you again of course Every single day thereafter Just a reflection in the mirror Yet I could still hear your laughter So I stretched out my arms As I desperately reached out for you But you were on the other side Of a looking glass looking through I wondered what had happen...

Lurking deep within my mind Is the never-ending memory of A moment never meant for me Reminders of an unspeakable love Memories haunt me everywhere I long to be free but I just cry I hear your name most every day My heart is sinking deep inside Many months, turned to years You were my teacher, my friend My confidant...my lover, but All things must come to an end.